The other day I had a dream,
I died.
I don’t know how I died or when or how old I was.
but I was an age of neutrality.
Not Old
Or Young.
But both.
I had a all the maturity and wit that I was ever going to have.
And all the energy and curiosity that I have ever had.
I was naked and in a place that was the world mixed together.
Every rock and plant species
all muddled up in a vast space
Like all the paint colors thrown into one can.
I had died and woken up millions of years later after the apocalypse.
Everyone I knew was there.
And everyone else I didn’t know.
The good, the bad and the ones of us in between.
It was like the world had saved every soul’s energy
and when the end came it was finally released.
The cork was taken off the champagne bottle
and the pressure rocketed off into the ether.
All of us were free from judgement, motivation and fatigue.
We all enjoyed each other’s company
and we worked and created without sloth
We harvested to enjoy feasts without glutton.
We held hands and had made love without lust.
We gave respect without taking pride
and followed rules not enforced with wrath.
and loved everyone we met without envy.
It wasn’t utopia,
It was tabula rasa.
We were clean and forgiven
by each other and the gods that we prayed to.
It was if we had been purified after death by the Earth we were given.
And then I woke up and it was May 18th, 2012.
I was 20 years and 5 months and 18 days old.
My cat was there and I was late for class.
It was my final day of my Junior year of college
and all of my friends were leaving.
I had gone on my first date with my friend Philip the day before.
We picked dewberries in a field behind an elementary school.
(via gettinhighinthemorning)